[brdlvr]

Yesterday I posted about getting a temp sponsor and finally letting go and trying it the AA way and not on my own (hard to admit that I couldn't do it on my own). I called the lady I was thinking of calling, but for some reason the number would not go through. So I called this gal that I ran into the last time I went to a meeting - about 3 weeks ago. She and I used to party together back in high school. She has been sober for about 12 years! She met me at the meeting and thank goodness I didn't have to formally ask if she will be my temp. She asked me if I really want to quit drinking - I said yes, but have no idea how to change my life - all I've know since I was 15 was drinking and in my adult life - the bars and parties. She gave me a list of task/suggestions. I grumbled at first about them - a meeting every day? Introduce my self and get numbers from other women at each meeting? Call her every day? Sheesh, but I'll do it. Again, my way wasn't working that's for sure. I still don't have much faith in myself that this time it will work - heck not sure how I can even get one weekend under my belt again. But willing to try