 Arrggg...I feel horrible
Hello. I'm pretty new here. Only a few days old. Actually I'm a 44 year old male...lol, but I've been writing in the newcomers forum, and was told I should come here and state my situation for advice and support.
I've been using vicodins for over a year. Started with a sprained ankle and I just continued to use. I've been up to 6 a day. I know it doesnt sound like alot, but your body gets used to it and craves it when it doesnt get it.
Anyways, I'm a single father of 2 young sons, and I work 6 days a week, and have no family to help me out with the kids.
I've decided to quit ( the vikes, not my job...lol).
Because of my job and my two sons, I cant go cold turkey, so i've decided to taper.
Friday night, I went down to 4 a day. (1 in the morning, 1 mid evening, and 2 at night when i got home from work).
Saturday, I started feeling kinda crappy. And stayed with the 4, in the same order as stated above.
Yesterday, Sunday, I had only 3 left. I decided to take one in the morning when i got up. Take one with me to work (with the plan to take it around 7:30pm or so) and then I would have the last one for before bedtime.
Well, I did pretty good and only took the one in the morning (because I seem to feel the worse when i first get up), and then I put the other in my pocket and headed off to work in the early evening. Well, I didnt take it at work. I fought it off, even though I was feeling like i had the flu. I saved it and took it when i got home last night around 12am, saving the 3rd one for this morning.
Well, my night was terrible. I had a real hard time sleeping. Almost like i was in between sleeping and awake all night. Legs moving and hurting abit. Tried to get my kids up at 7:30am for school, but I didnt have the strength to fight with them when they gave me a hard time about getting up, so I called them in( they had a half day today anyways thank god) and I laid back down.
I finally was able to actually fall into a sleep. Woke up at 12pm, feeling really bad. Strong flu like symptoms, so i took the last one I had just a while ago, at apx 12:30pm.
I'm not feeling too bad right now ( 1:50pm), but I have to go back to work this evening and know that i'm gonna feel terrible again later tonight. But I did make it through yesterday on only 2, so thats what my plan is for today as well. I have a friend dropping me off 3 before I go to work this evening. I'm going to plan on using 1 tonight, and then hopefully a half one when i get up tomorrow ( tuesday) and another half one tomorrow night, leaving me with one to split up on the last day ( wednesday) which is my day off, so i should be able to get some rest and get through this to the end (hopefully).
Just looking for a little advice, suport and prayer. I know I can do this, but its hard on the body, and mind.
Any help or suggestions would be appreciated.
Like i said, I started off in the newcomers, and if anyone wants to read those posts before replying here, its listed under "Hello" by michigan.
Thanks to all in advance!
Sorry for writing so much.
Peace and Love,
michigan
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