Mike...just to let you know that you are supported and not judged here.
Yes, it hurts to become real sometimes...but you know what? Give that reality over to your HP and let it be handled. You take care of the minor details and let your HP take care of the rest. It will all come to you if you just
allow.
Ask and Allow. Don't fight it or resist...just let it happen.
Sending healing thoughts to you Mike.
Wolfstarr