[skippy69]

Hi ccgirl, It is totally normal for you to have the yuks! Feel fortunate that you are getting some sleep, as most people cant sleep at all. Clonodine is used often in detox, it is a bloodpressure medicine that helps take the edge off, therefore you relax a bit. If you can make your self do some exercise, like simply walking, it will help so much. I know its hard to get motivated, but try and think of the future, everyday will get better. And of course you have every reason to do this. One, do it for you first, and think of what a great mother you can be sober. Also, think about getting into a program, whether its AA or NA, there's something about listening and talking to others who are going thru the same thing. I know i first said "there is no way im gonna sit with a bunch of "drug addicts and alcoholics" and talk about my life and what im going thru, no way! Well, i gave it a try, and it was so unbelievable how much better i felt after going. They get me, and its amazing what a bond you develop with these people. Anyway, keep trying to think positive, and i know its said here over and over, but it really does get better. If we could just flip a switch in our brain to remember all the agony we go thru while detoxing, we would think twice about using again. But, the mind heals itself, and as time goes by it tricks us into thinking "Hey, everything is ok now, go ahead, you can have one pill, and things will be different this time". Take it from me, and just read all the posts here, there are countless people who believed that lie, including me. So dont fall for that. Good luck to you, you can do this.

Skippy