[Don W]

Today we had one of our twice a week gym sessions. I sort of like the idea of instead of telling us to exercise, they help put it into action. We had a meeting last night that dealt with starting a program like this. For those that don't know it is a 3 to 4 month commitment. They had some of the Veterans that have been here share their experience of just starting the program. During the session my perspective of this uneasy feeling started to change.
I'm starting to understand that these feelings are a sign of growth. By that I mean, having normal feelings are what is strange to me. Being aware of the consequences and affect it will have on others lives. I started this journey with the thought, " I don't care what happens I'm going to get better." Now in part this is good but, there is another side. Alcohol, depression and ptsd helped me make decisions giving consequences very little thought. I think the best way to describe it is responsibility is creeping, not back, but into my life for the first time. I'm in the early stages myself, live. Funny you mention attitude and perception. That was also a topic in a group today. They talked mostly about opening oneself up to different ways to look at the world around us. I'm thinking they were telling us to understand the world isn't all about us.
We must adapt to this, as it, changes our perspective. Live, have you, or others ever get to the point that you start to see yourself grow? I'm talking about growing as a person. This is a new,stange and exciting feeling that I hope others can identify with. The candles, that Roger Waters speaks of, are starting to light the dark corners of my life. As the light shines on them I recognise them as not something to fear but, something to embrace. Don W