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There isnt a person alive,who ever lived up to my expectations of them.Nor have i lived up to their expectations.My expections as well as theirs didnt allow for growth,.Didnt allow things to happen,in process.And they were higher,sometimes my expectaions were higher on others,than my,on, own self.So i stoped,all the expectaions.It was hurting,me and others,too.
When i came to recovery rooms,i knew in my heart of hearts that,our marriage was fried,big time.All i had to do,was to make the move.My sponsor said to me,hold it!!!Time for me to take the focus of him,and work with a open mind and heart,only on my recovery.As im doing this,im changing,my thoughts,changing my feelings.Im changing,.Stay or go,recovery is important,to make clearer decisions in my life.I prayed asking for God's will in our marriage.No longer my wants,if he changes,and all that stuff.Just asking Gods will.From my own experince,God has changed what seemed to be a hopeless person,who didnt follow His,will,into miracles.After that person handed their lives over to the care of God.
This is how it has worked for us.What i thought and trully believed was the living end,turned around to a miracle.Who knows what will happen.Let,go,Let God work into my, life.My staying or going i left in the hands of God.
For myself all my issues,have had ,and are having to this day,spiritual solutions.
My prayers for you both,
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