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Aren't you alone now? Sometimes I think we stay with alcoholics because they distract us from ourselves. You aren't afraid of being alone. You are afraid of him and being judged as a quitter. I think you have to look at it differently. Here is what I did when I was doing the same thing. I had to realize that my marriage either honored God of it disgraced Him. Marriage in my mind is a holy institution. I remember the vows I spoke. What I had dismissed is the vows I heard. This man promised to love me, honor me, cherish me, for richer or poorer, in sickness and health, until death do us part. You are a gift from God to this man. You were an opportunity for this man. Does his addiction mock God or honor Him? God will not bless a mockery and I firmly believe that while I was determined to stay praying to near insanity, trying to find the sanity to stay and live, God was saying. "Go". To this day, if it doesn't honor God, it is not a part of my life.
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