It is not babbling...maybe rambling...lol...but good rambling.
Nina, Thanks for sharing this with us. Being real isn't easy, it's hard to admitt that we don't have it all together. But then that is why we are all here. Recovery isn't some magic place we find ourselves in and now everything is our lives is "peachy keen". It's the day to day living; the choices we make and the learning and sharing and growth we experience. It's the recognizing of the red flags that go up when we feel ourselves going in the other direction; and then the active steps we take to bring ourselves back on track.
Progress, not Perfection !!!!!!! remember
About your sponsor....have you expressed your concern to her??? Becasue that is important. You may be overly concerned about something that isn't really an issue with her, and then on the other hand, if it is and she cannot be available to you as you need, then maybe it's time to get another sponsor. I know that it is not that easy to just break in a new sponsor, but you have to take care of you also. That's important. There nothing worse than feeling like you can't talk to nobody and that you have no-where to turn to.
We are here for you too, darlin', and through your sharing, others do get the help they need. Covers two things at once. I know you said that you liked it when I shared more....well.....goes both ways girlfriend. I am here!!
but first off, so what you need to for you. How's that plan coming???