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The fear of being alone is huge. The unknown is very scary. Do any of us really know what is going to happen tommorrow or next week. I know when I was with my ah I felt very lonely. My life was a roller coaster due to his actions.
When I left, it felt like I had more control over my life. I actually looked forward to the future instead of fearing it.
Our lifes can change in a heart beat, for the good and bad and I wanted to live my life the happiest and fullest. That is what you deserve.
Love and happiness should not be forced or controlled, it should come easily.
My counsoler told me relationships should not be this painful. I really had to look at that and realize their is a life out there, and my happiness should not rely so much on another person.
You need to figure out what YOU want. That was the hardest thing I ever had to do. For years I always thought about everyones elses happiness and needs. It is coming slowly, but it is a pretty cool feeling taking care of me.
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