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I woke up this morning and forced myself to get some things done, now I am ready to scream and pull my hair out! I feel like I will never ever beat this depresion and anxiety. I hid for so long behind drugs that I just have to learn to cope again I guess, I am not craving any drugs, just feel like crawling in a hole somewhere! I am really trying to not give it much legitimacy by focusing on how I feel, but when I let myself feel all the feelings so I can let them go.. I feel really really out of control.. I know ya all have worked through this stuff and I cling to the hope that others have learned to cope with depression and so can i. I just still doubt myself.