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I hope that I don't come off as a cranky or angry all the time....????...I am basically OK and try to be an upbeat person. It might come off that way here because this is my place to vent and let out all those deep feelings that I generally keep away from the rest of the world.
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Now Pony, There is no way that you ever come off as cranky or angry. I can tell by your posts that you are an upbeat person. You don't even vent much. I would love if you would come here to vent more often. I like feeling like we're having some normal close friend conversations.
Now yesterday, I was REALLY cranky, but today I feel so so much better again. I guess that I got a couple of the lessons, that I've learned in the past few months, reinforced by being reminded of how awful the alternative is. Maybe it'll stick with me for a while longer this time. We people with addictive behaviors also have the shortest memory too. We seem to quickly forget how much pain our bad choices cause and we just have to try it again.
It's just so unreal.