This happens often to me! It's like for every joyous feeling I own a million dark shadows are in wait to jump on me. I think many of us don't believe we deserve to be happy, and also it frightens us to be happy because so many times our joy and innocence was torn away with trauma and other abuse, so we figure it's just safer to feel nothing at all, least not happiness.I guess the best thing to do is allow yourself to feel and acknowledge it in full and then gently nudge yourself into thinking and feeling happier more joyous things. Have a safe trip and try to truly enjoy yourself! You deserve it you know!!
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Many Hugs and Hope too,
Tammie
"Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~
"Things do not change, WE change."
~Henry David Thoreau~
