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Originally Posted by Erin
I've noticed that one of my biggest triggers is the 'oh poor me' mentality.
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I can identify with this. I've heard recovering alcoholics put it this way:
"Poor me. Poooooor me.
Pooooooour me a drink..."
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Originally Posted by Erin Also a part of addiction is the world revolves around me. Stupid, I know. |
Yup. This disease affects and distorts ego. I never thought I was the greatest thing in the world; this is not how my sick ego manifests. On the contrary, what my ego told me was that I was the absolute WORST, most horrible person ever to draw breath on this planet. If that's not a sign of an ego in serious need of balancing/a glaring lack of humility, I don't know what is.
I've been taught that humility is simply understanding one's right place in relation to the Universe.
My ego is much more balanced and "right-sized" today thanks to many twenty-four hours in 12-Step recovery! Without that, I shudder to think of where I might be today...