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Chloe, I just came to work. It is always good to hear from you. You asked me what time it was here. I think there is a big time difference between Arkansas and Australia. When you checked on yesterday it was around 4:00pm for me, which was nearing the end of my shift. That's why I didn't get to talk to you for long. I am sitting at my desk right now doing paperwork. I just wanted to let you know that I appreciate you staying in here with me so I won't feel like I am alone. It helps when you have someone else to lean on. I am basically a strong person, but am really having a hard time with this. Today is worse than yesterday. I actually felt better yesterday in day 5, but I had a terrible night last night and I feel like I took two steps backward today. No sleep last night, my legs bothered me all night, and my back hurt alot. The bad part is that I know all I have to do is call my doctor and get some relief, not only from the withdrawals but also from the constant pain in my back and shoulder. I know he will, as he always has in the past, give me all the pain pills I want. Doctors should not do that, but mine does, and I'm paying a heavy price for it now. It is so hard to do but I will not give in. I will deal with the pain of my injuries in my own way, but I will not give in and get more hydrocodone pain killers. At least I hope I don't give in. It was all I could do to get out of bed this morning, suit up, and go to work. It will be a long day. It helps if I stay busy. Maybe I will have a busy day to keep my mind off it. Check in when you get up, ok. I hope you sleep well and I hope each day gets better for you. Well, off I go to face day 6....
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