Juls,
Thank you for relating to my experience in Berlin. I realize it will take a long time for me to get over what I saw. It´s probably true what you said about some people being more affected to that than others.
I saw the documentary “Night and Fog” by Alain Resnais, one of the first documentaries to be made after the camps were opened and the famous one from Nurenberg, among others. I was truly affected, but it was not nearly as devastating. In the camp I visited there was an exhibition. You could touch the clothes the prisoners wore and you could see the items... horrible things I will never speak of because it goes beyound everything I have seen. I cannot unburden myself, because I cannot lay this knowledge - this burden - on anybody else. Sometimes I don´t know what to do about this. I don´t want to talk to a priest - I´m a lapsed Catholic and furthermore, i don´t believe there was a God in the concentration camps.
I will heal though. This weekend I´m taking my 5 year old niece to Italy in a car. We´re going to visit my aunt who lives near Venice. It´s so healing and giving being in the child´s presence. I´ll be taking my computer with me so I´ll probably sending you all sunny post from "la Bella Italia". :shades: Maybe even take a ride on a vespa?
Thank you for your good advice. I intend to devote less time on negative thoughts, but I seem to need a bit of support accomplishing that.
Love and light,