|
Lilya,
I remember reading your post about traveling to Berlin and seeing the camps. When I was 17, in highschool we were shown a documentary of the camps. Actual footage of terrible things being done to men, women, and children. I was depressed for weeks afterwards unable to get the sights out of my head. This type of thing would affect anyone, but some of us are much more sensitive to things like that.
You already have a great deal of wisdom in how to address those voices. Embrace them, know them for what they are, and live your life. It is scary when good things happen, because of waiting for the other shoe to drop. When will life hurt me, when will the bad thing happen.
But it doesn't always happen. We are not cursed or doomed, it is our mind playing tricks on us.
In my own life I am trying to learn to enjoy the good things more, and put less energy into my feelings of insecurity.
Juls
|