[Paul83]

I think everyone to some degree or another is guilty of the mental relapse - the 'slip.' Synthetic painkillers were one of my DOC and early on in sobriety I found myself snooping in a medicine cabinet - "just wondering, just curious" - what would be there. I've talked to many others in AA and NA who have done the exact same thing you are describing when visiting somewhere.
I eventually had to move in with my dad who is on a full spectrum cocktail of painmeds and was struggling a bit - at certain times - battling that old mental obsession. I was told that had my higher power been sitting next to me (which he is in fact) when I was looking in the medicine cabinet - would I have still done it? Is it His will for me to do that sort of thing? Pretty easy answer. I'm grateful today that the mental obsession to drink and use has been lifted - but, as always - it's just a daily repreive. If I start letting up I'm gonna be snooping around places I shouldn't be - and odds are that if I do that enough one of them will lead to a relapse. Hope that helps - you are not unique!!