[Lilya]

Ghostdog, take courage. This will pass.

I´m a former junkie and alcholic. I had massive anxiety attacks as well and deep depressions. The fear and obessions were with me all the time.

One of the ways of dealing with that fear was to stay with it. Just feel it, accept it and go on as if I was not afraid. I knew I would somehow get used to it. One day I did, but it comes back and then I rely on the tools to manage that fear.

The second way actually comes from the 12 step programme. I learned to let go of the fear by "turning it over." It´s a psychological trick. I asked my Higher power to take it away from me, because it was stronger than me and it was controlling my life.

The Higher power can be God (the way you see it/him) the subconscious, whatever you want it to be. You will see with practice that it fades when you turn it over.

Best of luck.

Love and light,