Nope - I am his sole caregiver - He lost his speech with his stroke and is re-learning and his speech is going downhill right now - I am the only one who understands him - so I have to interpret, plus I am the only one who knows his whole medical picture, stroke, seizures, severe central & obstructive sleep apnea (sleeps with a machine or will die) All these things are life threatening...I am feeling guilty thinking this is my only way out...
I have it in my God box to please help me find a way out..(Death)
He has a sister who won't help..She nursed her husband to death with Lou Gerigs..so I kind of understand...I begged her for respite when I was living there - No Luck_ Never came to the Hospital until I told her the Doctor wanted me to get a Power of Attorney and I phoned her to say I was uncomfortable with that...she was there in 5 mins...
I Finally moved out..but still help with medical..she takes him for groceries and thats it..she is in denial about his condition.
But Jim won't even write a will, so If he dies, she gets everything & I'm HOOPED..
But I wouldn't want anyone to abandon me...so I stay
I know that for my health I have to leave him....Just can't
I've changed my treatment to Friday...Maybe I should go have a dirty liason on Thurs..you are right, but I have issues there too...Darn !!
The only vice I have is cigarettes which will be on the way out too once the Doc gives me the OK (stable enuf)
If I come on here when I get home Friday..Hope I don't say anything wierd..Pls forgive me if I do - And pls remind me when I come back to earth Ha ha....
Now this has turned into more of a Coda thread than Mental Health - Oh well - I qualify every where.....But I'm still a great Girl (said over and over under breath !!!!)
Thanks for your support...I really need it - I have WAY too much on my plate !!!!!
Janni