OOOOO....I am still so nervous and undecided about this...I am to phone this morning to confirm that I will go Wed am for a treatment..The Dr. says I should start with just one...and lets see if it works to stop the cycling and the body pain...I will lose my memory of Tuesday and be confused for a while as well as a lot of "stuff" coming up...
The "stuff" coming up didn't bother me last week, but since the "arm grabbing" incident (my Mom-childhood abuse)I posted yesterday I have had spurts of REAL RAGE coming up....
I live alone with my beautiful dog & am not alowed to drive after the treatment, so will have a friend drive me there & pick me up to bring me home...I guess I am afraid I will be crabby with my dog or forget to feed her or something, mind you - she will let me know if she is hungry....
I guess I'm just venting my fear of this LONG HELD RAGE that I have never been able to let out...maybe it is time...but i am nervous of being alone with it...I think my Dr. will be there after the treatment tho...
Fear of the unknown - what is new
The sooner I get it over with, the better I guess
