First of all, I am overwelmed by all of your responses to my post. I appreciate each and everyone. I know all of you suffer in much the same way I do and I do appreciate the encouring words. I will continue to read and to post and try to come here even when days are darkest.
I have been on Welburtrin and Prozac and Klonopin for several years. I tried some of the others but they made me sick. Also, I have been to several different kinds of therapy with little results. I have a doc or should I say I had one until July 31st and she transfered to the other end of the state. I will have to find a new one now, but that may be a plus as I wasn't real happy with her anyway. I really like group therapy and probably need to find a new group. It gives me hope to know that you all are making progress in coping with your depression. It just seems like when I get depressed, that I really don't care whether I get better or not. When I get depressed, I get really angry with myself and feel worthless and hopeless and at almost 50 years old and divorced have 25+ years of a really bad marriage I feel like life is basically over most of the time. I have lost interest in most everything that I use to love to do like drawing. But I really am glad I found SR and I hope to stick around with you fine folks for a long time.... JSB
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