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blueglass · 08-02-2006, 02:01 AM

I'm still hanging on, and wanted to thank everyone for their replies.

I'm locked onto this whole thing, mentally... keep wondering why I'm not expressing myself clearly enough for my friend of 13 years to understand that his continued finger pointing at me and friendship with the person that just emotionally mistreated me is humiliating. When I told him that I didn't think I was going to be able to come over to his house anymore, he told me I was "over-reacting". Maybe. Still, not supportive.

I have taken some vicodin - just one. Didn't drink anything, but did take a few sleeping pills a bit ago - only because it's almost 4am, and sleeping, as ranae pointed out, might be the best thing for me. I just can't seem to amp down enough to rest. I guess that's normal when you're in some sort of inner turmoil?

ranae, I also wanted to thank you for sharing with me your ways of coping. I did watch a movie, and for a time, it took me out of myself enough to settle down. I still don't think I need to be here, but for now, I am, and I'll just see if I'm still here at 5am.

Thank you also, upanddownjj - I saw your posting earlier but I wasn't in the best frame of mind to reply, but know I'm thinking about you, and wishing you well. You also, ranae.

I just am so unable to wrap my mind around why someone would want to emotionally destroy someone else, who hasn't done anything to them, and that they know has issues as far as intimacy. I don't understand unjustifiable meanness.

*sigh* I'm gonna try the sleep thing again. Thank you everyone... hope to post again soon.

08-02-2006, 02:01 AM	#5 (permalink)
blueglass Freak, no Leash Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Ohio Posts: 50	I'm still hanging on, and wanted to thank everyone for their replies. I'm locked onto this whole thing, mentally... keep wondering why I'm not expressing myself clearly enough for my friend of 13 years to understand that his continued finger pointing at me and friendship with the person that just emotionally mistreated me is humiliating. When I told him that I didn't think I was going to be able to come over to his house anymore, he told me I was "over-reacting". Maybe. Still, not supportive. I have taken some vicodin - just one. Didn't drink anything, but did take a few sleeping pills a bit ago - only because it's almost 4am, and sleeping, as ranae pointed out, might be the best thing for me. I just can't seem to amp down enough to rest. I guess that's normal when you're in some sort of inner turmoil? ranae, I also wanted to thank you for sharing with me your ways of coping. I did watch a movie, and for a time, it took me out of myself enough to settle down. I still don't think I need to be here, but for now, I am, and I'll just see if I'm still here at 5am. Thank you also, upanddownjj - I saw your posting earlier but I wasn't in the best frame of mind to reply, but know I'm thinking about you, and wishing you well. You also, ranae. I just am so unable to wrap my mind around why someone would want to emotionally destroy someone else, who hasn't done anything to them, and that they know has issues as far as intimacy. I don't understand unjustifiable meanness. sigh I'm gonna try the sleep thing again. Thank you everyone... hope to post again soon.