I can't stand this up & down crap !!! I just got it together to go to the online meeting, really enjoyed it and now I am spiralling down...I hate this !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My Dr. is just back fm a months holiday - so I sent an e-mail today to see if I have my reg. appt Fri....But - after all this time, when I go down and can't be "my Cheery Self" I feel so full of shame even tho I know this isn't my fault..I just hate my powerlessness over it..I can't stop thinking when I'm feeling well that OK I'm cured now...I don't want to accept or even acknowledge that this will come back..
Electroshock trtmt has been advised for me...I don't think I'm THAT BAD..but upon investigation, it has progressed beyond "one flew over the cuckoos nest days"..I've spoken to a few pple who've had it and they've done well...I'm nervous tho about possible memory loss...
Anyone out there had it ????
Janni
